I Am the Best
Eyes feel like closing, brain refusing to process, body almost giving in.
It's just so difficult to work when you are so sleepy.
I studied last night but I didn't get much out of a crammed information taking.
I think I'm really dead this semester.
The hell I care.
I just need to fix my academic life.
I'm not usually like this.
I am the obssessive compulsive type.
But the only thing that makes me OC about is my stupid hair that looks like wig every so often.
Up to now, I haven't achieved what I planned when I was in Korea.
No cellphone, no clothes, and most especially no house.
I am smart but I can't maximize this intelligence.
I can't understand why.
I am becoming more lazy everyday.
Yes, I am trying to change but my attempt is futile.
I guess I should put more effort.
I hate being mediocre.
I want to be at the pinnacle again.
I don't want to be looked down.
I have nothing except for the respect others give to me.
Without those then I am trash.
Am I asking for assurance from others?
I guess, this is the reason why I don't trust myself.
If only I can stand on my own, but whenever I try I always fail.
There's always that point that I feel there's no reason for keeping this pretending.
There's only one thing that I want to happen and that is to be the best among the rest.
I want to be the best again.
